Chapter32; Wishes For Christmas

♣ New phone, w705
♣ New Laptop xD
♣New nike shoes ;D

see in this life is about materialistic
i wish i have most of the things

♣My parents are here to celebrate birthday with me
Don't asked me why ; is just the last time we celelbrate together was last 14 years ago
♣I don't believe miracle neither is santa
But i seriously believe it will make a difference if we could be together on my birthday
It mean alot to ;D

Chapter31; Never knew I needed you

(ooh) for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that
i have of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
(oh yeah) for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah) for the way you're something
that i never choose but at the same time
something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

*you're the best thing i Never Knew I Needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

*repeat
who'd knew that i'd be here (who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl; *repeat x2

Chapter30; Changed man

DailyI’ve been waiting

For the time to passand

Let it fade in

But Baby, my patience

Is driving me crazy

Making me feel apart

What do you do

When the truth isn’tquiet enough?

They looking at you

Telling you We need to break it up

You need to trust what you do

It’s you and me my love

But Ima make it up to yo

uAnd show the world

I’m a changed maaaaan

Cause u mean much to meee

I don’t wanna be done

I’m doing all that I can

And everybody hates Chris

Thay can never understand

So can we love (6)

Can we love againGirl I know I told you

Baby this ain’t over

This ain’t overIt ain’t over

I remember your touch

God I miss u so much

Please believe me

Baby I’m sorry

And all of this money and fame

Can never amount

To every moment when I see your face

What do you do ?

When the truth isn’tquiet enough?

They looking at you Telling you

we need to break it up You need to trust what you do

It’s you and me my love

But Ima make it up to you

And show the worldI

’m a changed maaaaan

Cause u mean much to meee

I don’t wanna be done

I’m doing all that

canAnd everybody hates Chris

Thay can never understand

So can we love (6)Can we love again

Girl I know I told youB

aby this ain’t overThis ain’t over

It ain’t overSaying I’m sorry

Doesn’t make it allrightI know(2)

But I believe that we can make

itif we tryIf we tryyyyyy

Yeah,yeahWooaaaah

damn it . been long since i blog *faints

lolx ! just now i went out lunch with chris xP

his back from STATES;

its been so long all of us sitting and having lunch

okay bla bla bla ;

then chris fetch me back cus all of OTHER IDIOTS say they got stuff to do

it sounds like they wanted us to go and talk

sumore they called me pigheaded = =!

cus i din't want

i always complained thats what i do best

but end up followed chris;

see driving skill sucks! and without license!

my gawd!

then i heard this new song he keep playing on the music system

and he wanted me to listen ;

he said is full with meaning

*faints ! then bla bla bla i found this song okay

rate; 5/10

he asked me; all nonsense stuff bout private life to family to studies

and his studies *wohoho he's going back states before christmas

so i'm safe till he go back;

he gave me advance bfday present's which is lolx! secret!

hmmm... and before dropping off

he still wants to contact me ; facebook via phone via msn

then i say im not into social thingy and whatever

he even said

''sorry! i hurt you blablabla... i regret for doing this and please give me some of your time as my time are limited blablabla ...i came back to see you as well as my family;

but i think is see that girl, carrie

xP guys are always sorry and maybe ! lolx

i'm done ; complaining today!

wont be any sorry as is a FULL STOP!

Chapter29;Papers -Usher

(Usher Usher Usher) O

oh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers Ooh

! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 1:

I can't, get to work on time, can't believe the words to her

I just said But who the hell argue n fight like dogs at 6 in the morning?(in the mornin)

I know its gonna' be some more sh** tonight

mm oooh

Our pastor's callin, tellin me I done went too far in

I'm seen around town and my friends can't recognize me,

'cuz I took a chance on love(love), it's like(like), I'm dyin(ooh dyin)

chrs:

For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world

'Cause you were my girl, girl, girl

I done damn near lost my mama,

I done been through so much drama

I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them

papers, papers, papers

I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

I can't deny how much I love you,

I done gave up everthing

I had to as hard as it is

I'm afraid I gotta say

I'm ready to sign them

papers, papers, papers I

done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 2:

I'm losin my mind, cant figure out who's wrong or right

I know it's you I love, but then I also know it's you

I don't like You claim you hate who I was, but

that's the reason you here now

You think I don't know what's up,

but sweetheart that's what ruined us

I ain't afraid to say

I got needs but the only time you here for me is when the bottles poppin' and everything is sweet

but I'm tired of sleeping in the other room spending them long nights

trying to figure out what in the hell in my heart I ain't do right

. (Oooh for u) For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world(back against the world) '

Cause you were my girl, girl(girl), girl

, I done damn near lost my mama(mama)

, I done been through so much drama(drama)

I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.(never thought I would be)

I'm ready to sign them papers(papers),

papers(paii), papers(paai ooh oh oh oh)

(I done took)

all I can take but u leave me no options girl

I can't deny how much I love you(know that I love u)

, I done gave up everthing I had to (anything I had to

) as hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say(I'm affraid I gotta say)

I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(girl I took all I could take)

(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ohoh! OoOOooh! Oooooh yea!

Papers Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers Ready Ready Ready Ready

All my fellas up in here, if u had enough and u're ready to sign

say Ready Ready Ready Ready(I'm ready, yes I am)

All my ladies if u sick and tired, and u're, ready to sign, s

ay Ready Ready Ready Ready(ooh)

I can't keep livin this life,

I'm feena leave it for the last time

I'm Ready Ready Ready Ready

I done damn near lost my mama,

I done been through so much drama I

done turned into the man I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers

I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

I can't deny how much I love you,

I done gave up errthing I had to as hard as it is

I'm affraid I gotta say I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers

I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

countdown for spm papers;

im nonsense!

Chapter28; END

GUD LUCK SPM/ STPM CANDIDATES ;



i dont know what had happen to me recently ;
im feeling lonely ,emotional and stress out
until now ;
okayokay.. today is the end of something *black out*
i still don't know how i feel yesterday;
i nearly fainted in front of my house ;
shyt! i think the stupid idiont sickness is back ;
from today onwards spm is just a matter of time
it past swifly and quietly
so...... finish and i' m done
why is it that i always think to much ; whereelse is truth isnt it?
isn't it so obviously is none of my business to get involve between them
dreams are not reality ; with evidence in it ; walk away and never look back

babycheeries 09'

my only one .♥

Chapter27; Battle

Look ! our final battle yet to come
Thats SPM!
Lol! I can't wait to get out from SCHOOL ;
waking up everyday at 6.30 am!
How tired !
awww! yeahhh! i do have friends sitting for STPM !
Lets JIA YOU ! don't give up ! since i already did!

Yesterday ; emily said she's heartbroken
Not like anyone of us never been before;
sometime is just you have to walk and accept reality
I belive that she can get something better than him; a jerk?
Is just sometimes people tend to fall in love and forget their self
This is just a part of suffering when you just saw 'him' walking out that door
And never look back
Theres time when turning around seems so late
and lies are worst still when come two person in love
I can just stay there and tell her that ''EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY''
But when come the part MOVING ON is you !
Only YOU can decide!
Being there for someone who needs is what a friend could do
I went through exactly what she felt
But when coming the part not to let go is just ''being stupid''
but TIME HEALS

I told her ;
when he left me ;for some reasons;
he told lies ;
nothing you can do
but just sit down and cry
of how stupid that it happens.
I used to cry ;stuff my self hungry; depression and all sought of negative thing
But for me ;
The part of waking up and knowing the truth is the worst part
Each day till now ; let it be sweet memories istead a waste of life hating somebody for hurting you, since he dare not come and tell you the truth
i never regret knowing him( i wish that i Had; but his just a color in my life)
and i think that she =me
Inequality will separate two person in two different world
He can just walk out of your life like any of your friends will do
but Your FAMILY won't

I found something i used to cried over
and this song wakes my soul each time
and tell me'' is time to wake up from your fairy tales''

Hush hush by PCD

Inever needed you to be strong,

I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs,

I never needed pain,

I never needed strain,

My love for you was strong enough you should have known,

I never needed you for judgments,

I never needed you to question what I spend,

I never asked for help,

I take care of myself,

I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations,

There isn't anything for you to say,

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,

So look at me, and listen to me..

I don't want to stay another minute

I don't want you to say a single word,

There is no other way,

I get the final say, Because.. I don't want to do this any longer,

I don't want you, there's nothing left to say,

I've already spoken, our love is broken,

I never needed your corrections,

On everything, from how I act, to what I say,

I never needed words,

I never needed hurts,

I never needed you to be there every day,

I'm sorry for the way I let go,

Of everything I wanted when you came along

But I am never beaten, broken, not defeated,

I know that next to you is not where I belong,

And it's a little late for explanations,

There isn't anything that you can do.

See emily this is what i dedicate for you ; cus i know you 'll read my blog xP
SMILE =]
I can tell you ; I'll never leave
you can always count on me xD

ohya!! i think i will end my emo post soon *winks
im changing my blogpost to '' Him and her '' as PRINCE and PRINCESS
Is dedicated to make people happy xP as fairy tales may come truexD

his my prince; to my diary

Chapter26; Battlefield

Its been so long since i blogged
Lol... Nowadays life so hectic;no time to rest and whatever you can think of
But i still can go out; catch some friends back from overseas.
Yes! Of course I do. But no to clubbing, Its been since months i din't stepped into night clubs!
Oh! By the way; i stop driving car illegaly , lala~ . Oh and my idiot L license expired .
So , i still Ride bike of course.

Friday , I went out with wendee ; OMG! we are like to freeking pigs racing down to prangin mall from her hse. lol. My mom call me and said how dangerous using bike but seriously i find it intersting. Of course, Wendee is more fast than I am . Lol but finally phew* I win her by 1 corner ZZZ. Lol. I have not drive car since last weeks ; and i realised is more convinent by my attitude to ride bike; faster and safer[ im not sure ].

Saturday ; pk session at xdo . Win .Nite ; study _ theory music @@[ music exam more important pay fees so much] aunty will slaghter me if i don't pass]

Sunday ; study but sleep more ;

by the way ; its been awhile i din't touch my phone . Its kind off out of purpose the phone being with me; lala...

his my prince ; Mr.D

Chapter25 ; ________

people around seem to over-react in time ;[
i hated being the part ;[ when everybody knows you!
i feel like running away each time ;
but i knew running away from problem wont make difference as your a coward

see there's this adrian i just feel like killing him;
first sem this year he stole my drawing and submit as his art work!
now he stole my prom dress and high heels for his so called'' model''
ishhhh! feel like really kill him ;[