♥ Memories♥

NEW CHAPTER

2009-12-11T22:53:00.001-08:00

NEW BLOGSPOT;

http://hismyprince.blogspot.com/

Chapter32; Memories

2009-12-05T03:00:00.000-08:00

i already got my wishes ;]
my laptop xD

next is phone
I wonder went only can get my phone ;]
so expensive hope that i can get it faster ;] it take me so long to get it cus recently i no money

Chapter32; Wishes For Christmas

2009-11-30T05:58:00.000-08:00

♣ New phone, w705
♣ New Laptop xD
♣New nike shoes ;D

see in this life is about materialistic
i wish i have most of the things

♣My parents are here to celebrate birthday with me
Don't asked me why ; is just the last time we celelbrate together was last 14 years ago
♣I don't believe miracle neither is santa
But i seriously believe it will make a difference if we could be together on my birthday
It mean alot to ;D

Chapter31; Never knew I needed you

2009-11-23T06:25:00.000-08:00

(ooh) for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that
i have of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
(oh yeah) for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah) for the way you're something
that i never choose but at the same time
something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

*you're the best thing i Never Knew I Needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

*repeat
who'd knew that i'd be here (who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl; *repeat x2

Chapter30; Changed man

2009-11-20T06:50:00.000-08:00

DailyI’ve been waiting

For the time to passand

Let it fade in

But Baby, my patience

Is driving me crazy

Making me feel apart

What do you do

When the truth isn’tquiet enough?

They looking at you

Telling you We need to break it up

You need to trust what you do

It’s you and me my love

But Ima make it up to yo

uAnd show the world

I’m a changed maaaaan

Cause u mean much to meee

I don’t wanna be done

I’m doing all that I can

And everybody hates Chris

Thay can never understand

So can we love (6)

Can we love againGirl I know I told you

Baby this ain’t over

This ain’t overIt ain’t over

I remember your touch

God I miss u so much

Please believe me

Baby I’m sorry

And all of this money and fame

Can never amount

To every moment when I see your face

What do you do ?

When the truth isn’tquiet enough?

They looking at you Telling you

we need to break it up You need to trust what you do

It’s you and me my love

But Ima make it up to you

And show the worldI

’m a changed maaaaan

Cause u mean much to meee

I don’t wanna be done

I’m doing all that

canAnd everybody hates Chris

Thay can never understand

So can we love (6)Can we love again

Girl I know I told youB

aby this ain’t overThis ain’t over

It ain’t overSaying I’m sorry

Doesn’t make it allrightI know(2)

But I believe that we can make

itif we tryIf we tryyyyyy

Yeah,yeahWooaaaah

damn it . been long since i blog *faints

lolx ! just now i went out lunch with chris xP

his back from STATES;

its been so long all of us sitting and having lunch

okay bla bla bla ;

then chris fetch me back cus all of OTHER IDIOTS say they got stuff to do

it sounds like they wanted us to go and talk

sumore they called me pigheaded = =!

cus i din't want

i always complained thats what i do best

but end up followed chris;

see driving skill sucks! and without license!

my gawd!

then i heard this new song he keep playing on the music system

and he wanted me to listen ;

he said is full with meaning

*faints ! then bla bla bla i found this song okay

rate; 5/10

he asked me; all nonsense stuff bout private life to family to studies

and his studies *wohoho he's going back states before christmas

so i'm safe till he go back;

he gave me advance bfday present's which is lolx! secret!

hmmm... and before dropping off

he still wants to contact me ; facebook via phone via msn

then i say im not into social thingy and whatever

he even said

''sorry! i hurt you blablabla... i regret for doing this and please give me some of your time as my time are limited blablabla ...i came back to see you as well as my family;

but i think is see that girl, carrie

xP guys are always sorry and maybe ! lolx

i'm done ; complaining today!

wont be any sorry as is a FULL STOP!

Chapter29;Papers -Usher

2009-11-20T06:38:00.000-08:00

(Usher Usher Usher) O

oh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers Ooh

! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 1:

I can't, get to work on time, can't believe the words to her

I just said But who the hell argue n fight like dogs at 6 in the morning?(in the mornin)

I know its gonna' be some more sh** tonight

mm oooh

Our pastor's callin, tellin me I done went too far in

I'm seen around town and my friends can't recognize me,

'cuz I took a chance on love(love), it's like(like), I'm dyin(ooh dyin)

chrs:

For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world

'Cause you were my girl, girl, girl

I done damn near lost my mama,

I done been through so much drama

I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them

papers, papers, papers

I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

I can't deny how much I love you,

I done gave up everthing

I had to as hard as it is

I'm afraid I gotta say

I'm ready to sign them

papers, papers, papers I

done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 2:

I'm losin my mind, cant figure out who's wrong or right

I know it's you I love, but then I also know it's you

I don't like You claim you hate who I was, but

that's the reason you here now

You think I don't know what's up,

but sweetheart that's what ruined us

I ain't afraid to say

I got needs but the only time you here for me is when the bottles poppin' and everything is sweet

but I'm tired of sleeping in the other room spending them long nights

trying to figure out what in the hell in my heart I ain't do right

. (Oooh for u) For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world(back against the world) '

Cause you were my girl, girl(girl), girl

, I done damn near lost my mama(mama)

, I done been through so much drama(drama)

I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.(never thought I would be)

I'm ready to sign them papers(papers),

papers(paii), papers(paai ooh oh oh oh)

(I done took)

all I can take but u leave me no options girl

I can't deny how much I love you(know that I love u)

, I done gave up everthing I had to (anything I had to

) as hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say(I'm affraid I gotta say)

I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(girl I took all I could take)

(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ohoh! OoOOooh! Oooooh yea!

Papers Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers Ready Ready Ready Ready

All my fellas up in here, if u had enough and u're ready to sign

say Ready Ready Ready Ready(I'm ready, yes I am)

All my ladies if u sick and tired, and u're, ready to sign, s

ay Ready Ready Ready Ready(ooh)

I can't keep livin this life,

I'm feena leave it for the last time

I'm Ready Ready Ready Ready

I done damn near lost my mama,

I done been through so much drama I

done turned into the man I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers

I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

I can't deny how much I love you,

I done gave up errthing I had to as hard as it is

I'm affraid I gotta say I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers

I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

countdown for spm papers;

im nonsense!

Chapter28; END

2009-11-16T05:45:00.000-08:00

GUD LUCK SPM/ STPM CANDIDATES ;

i dont know what had happen to me recently ;
im feeling lonely ,emotional and stress out
until now ;
okayokay.. today is the end of something *black out*
i still don't know how i feel yesterday;
i nearly fainted in front of my house ;
shyt! i think the stupid idiont sickness is back ;
from today onwards spm is just a matter of time
it past swifly and quietly
so...... finish and i' m done
why is it that i always think to much ; whereelse is truth isnt it?
isn't it so obviously is none of my business to get involve between them
dreams are not reality ; with evidence in it ; walk away and never look back

babycheeries 09'

my only one .♥

Chapter27; Battle

2009-11-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

Look ! our final battle yet to come
Thats SPM!
Lol! I can't wait to get out from SCHOOL ;
waking up everyday at 6.30 am!
How tired !
awww! yeahhh! i do have friends sitting for STPM !
Lets JIA YOU ! don't give up ! since i already did!

Yesterday ; emily said she's heartbroken
Not like anyone of us never been before;
sometime is just you have to walk and accept reality
I belive that she can get something better than him; a jerk?
Is just sometimes people tend to fall in love and forget their self
This is just a part of suffering when you just saw 'him' walking out that door
And never look back
Theres time when turning around seems so late
and lies are worst still when come two person in love
I can just stay there and tell her that ''EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY''
But when come the part MOVING ON is you !
Only YOU can decide!
Being there for someone who needs is what a friend could do
I went through exactly what she felt
But when coming the part not to let go is just ''being stupid''
but TIME HEALS

I told her ;
when he left me ;for some reasons;
he told lies ;
nothing you can do
but just sit down and cry
of how stupid that it happens.
I used to cry ;stuff my self hungry; depression and all sought of negative thing
But for me ;
The part of waking up and knowing the truth is the worst part
Each day till now ; let it be sweet memories istead a waste of life hating somebody for hurting you, since he dare not come and tell you the truth
i never regret knowing him( i wish that i Had; but his just a color in my life)
and i think that she =me
Inequality will separate two person in two different world
He can just walk out of your life like any of your friends will do
but Your FAMILY won't

I found something i used to cried over
and this song wakes my soul each time
and tell me'' is time to wake up from your fairy tales''

Hush hush by PCD

Inever needed you to be strong,

I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs,

I never needed pain,

I never needed strain,

My love for you was strong enough you should have known,

I never needed you for judgments,

I never needed you to question what I spend,

I never asked for help,

I take care of myself,

I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations,

There isn't anything for you to say,

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,

So look at me, and listen to me..

I don't want to stay another minute

I don't want you to say a single word,

There is no other way,

I get the final say, Because.. I don't want to do this any longer,

I don't want you, there's nothing left to say,

I've already spoken, our love is broken,

I never needed your corrections,

On everything, from how I act, to what I say,

I never needed words,

I never needed hurts,

I never needed you to be there every day,

I'm sorry for the way I let go,

Of everything I wanted when you came along

But I am never beaten, broken, not defeated,

I know that next to you is not where I belong,

And it's a little late for explanations,

There isn't anything that you can do.

See emily this is what i dedicate for you ; cus i know you 'll read my blog xP
SMILE =]
I can tell you ; I'll never leave
you can always count on me xD

ohya!! i think i will end my emo post soon *winks
im changing my blogpost to '' Him and her '' as PRINCE and PRINCESS
Is dedicated to make people happy xP as fairy tales may come truexD

his my prince; to my diary

Chapter26; Battlefield

2009-11-07T22:52:00.000-08:00

Its been so long since i blogged
Lol... Nowadays life so hectic;no time to rest and whatever you can think of
But i still can go out; catch some friends back from overseas.
Yes! Of course I do. But no to clubbing, Its been since months i din't stepped into night clubs!
Oh! By the way; i stop driving car illegaly , lala~ . Oh and my idiot L license expired .
So , i still Ride bike of course.

Friday , I went out with wendee ; OMG! we are like to freeking pigs racing down to prangin mall from her hse. lol. My mom call me and said how dangerous using bike but seriously i find it intersting. Of course, Wendee is more fast than I am . Lol but finally phew* I win her by 1 corner ZZZ. Lol. I have not drive car since last weeks ; and i realised is more convinent by my attitude to ride bike; faster and safer[ im not sure ].

Saturday ; pk session at xdo . Win .Nite ; study _ theory music @@[ music exam more important pay fees so much] aunty will slaghter me if i don't pass]

Sunday ; study but sleep more ;

by the way ; its been awhile i din't touch my phone . Its kind off out of purpose the phone being with me; lala...

his my prince ; Mr.D

Chapter25 ; ________

2009-11-05T00:12:00.000-08:00

people around seem to over-react in time ;[
i hated being the part ;[ when everybody knows you!
i feel like running away each time ;
but i knew running away from problem wont make difference as your a coward

see there's this adrian i just feel like killing him;
first sem this year he stole my drawing and submit as his art work!
now he stole my prom dress and high heels for his so called'' model''
ishhhh! feel like really kill him ;[

Chapter24;Confessions

2009-10-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

Currently im thinking of him<3
This something describe what im thinking exactly bout him
These are some lines from twilight that really describe him at most of him<3
This is how BELLA describe Edward ;
and what him<3 really make of.xP
but as I know his not vampire* hahaha
HIS OBVIOUSLY A HUMAN

Edward in the sunlight was shocking . I couldn't get used to it , though I'd been staring at him all afternoon.His skin, white despair the faint flush form yesterday's hunting trip , literally sparkled, like thousands of tiny diamonds, were embedded in the surface. He lay perfectly still in the grass , his shirt open over his sculpted, incadescent chest, his scintillating arms bare. His glistening pale lavender lids were shut,though of course he din't sleep.

A perfect statue. Craved in some unknown stone, smooth like marble,glittering like crystal.
His angel's face was only few inches from mine. I might have- should have-flinched away from his unexpected closeness, but I was unable to move.His gold eyes mesmerized me

<3 him
the love of her life ;
Adrenline pulsed through my veins as the realization of danger slowly sank in.
his my prince to my fairy takes
When he hold me ; I shivered, as I heard him catch his breath .
His hands din't pause as they softly moved to my shoulders; and ther i know he will always be with me
At that time; i wish it was forever .
When i was with him ;

blood boiled under my skin, burned in my lips. My breath came in a wild gasp. My fingers knotted in his hair clutching him to me .

You're intoxicated be my very presence

prince, hold me very close to you;

as you promised you'll never leave

and eternity as what we both wish for

Chapter23; Dreams

2009-10-26T03:26:00.000-07:00

Your heart bleeds for one person, you yearn for their heart's embrace and to feel them love you as you love them. You may keep it hidden to protect yourself from harm but the need for them never lessens only grows with every glance and touch. Yu know love and feel it for them, but you torment yourself refusing to let it go so you suffer in silence because how could you ever deny yourself the way your heart flutters when you look at them. They say unrequainted love is life's greatest sorrow if you can't let it go then keeping hoping that one day they'll look at you differently and return your love.

this what i got for some weird lol.. quiz from fb! xP

i already had whole hectic days ;

when i went back home i saw that particular keychain ;

kinda attract my brains to stare at it

when i first saw it ; it kinds of fascinate me

its a gift; simple but alot meaning

besides staring at the keychain;

i tried to sleep since last few days i couldn't catch any nice sleep

oh ! one thing im kinda grateful right now ~

maid coming back ~

thank GOD ! i actually survived !

evening when to dobi ;

and i lost rm200

i wanted to donate rm150 to the temple

now i lose it ; so im gonna find a way out luh !

new phone .w705! ish all no more

okay ! noon consider bad luck

night ; flying to the beach i supposed

my only emo place

his my prince

Chapter22; him ♥ my dreams

2009-10-25T01:33:00.000-07:00

she dreamt bout him again

quotes from twilight ;
Bella: You gotta give me some answers.
Edward: Mmm.. yes, no, to get to the other side, uh.. 1.77245
Bella: I don't wanna know what the square root of pi is.
Edward: You knew that?

Edward: I feel very protective of you

Edward: I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore.
Bella: Then don't.

Bella: You're impossibly fast.. and strong. Your skin is pale white and ice cold. Your eyes change color, and sometimes you speak like..like, you're from different time. You never eat or drink anything. You don't go out in the sunlight. How old are you?
Edward: 17.
Bella: How long have you been 17?
Edward: Awhile.
Bella:I know what you are.
Edward: Say it. Out loud. Say it.
Bella: Vampire.
Edward: Are you afraid?
Bella: No.
Edward: Then ask me the most basic question. What do we eat?
Bella: You won't hurt me.

Edward: You're like my own personal brand of heroin

Edward: I can't read your mind. You have to tell me what you're thinking.
Bella: Now I'm afraid.
Edward: Good.
Bella: I'm not afraid of you. I'm only afraid of losing you. I feel like you're gonna disappear

Edward: So the lion fell in love with the lamb?
Bella: What a stupid lamb.
Edward: What a sick, masochistic lion.

Bella (narrating): About three things I was absolutely positive.
First, Edward was a vampire.
Second, there was a part of him, and I didn't know how dominant that part might be, that thirsted for my blood.
And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

edward: You better hold on tight, spider monkey.

Edward: Do you trust me? Bella: In theory.

Bella: How did you get in here?
Edward: The window.
Bella: Do you do that a lot?
Edward: Just the past couple of months. I like watching you sleep. It's umm.. it's kinda fascinating to me. Um..Now I just wanna try one thing.. just stay very still. Don't move.

Bella: Oh God, if anything.. if anything happens (to you?), I swear to God..
Edward: Nothing's gonna happen. There's seven of us and there's two of them. And when everything's done I'm gonna come back and get you.
Bella: Yeah.
Edward: Bella, you are my life now.

Bella (narrating): I've never given much thought to how I would die. But dying in the place of someone I love seems like a good way to go. I can't bring myself to regret the decisions that brought me face to face with death. They also brought me to Edward.

Edward: I leave you alone for two minutes and the wolves descend.

Bella (narrating): No one will surrender tonight. But I won't give in. I know what I want.

everything seems to possible when you're close to me
remember? you told me you'll never leave
his my prince to my diary

Chapter21 ;Revelation

2009-10-24T08:35:00.000-07:00

trying to be positive of something ;

ignoring everything that exists ;

loneliness kill people ;

its just a matter of time when you'll get use to it

alot of thing ;

she's trying to be postive

she loves him ; as always

Chapter21;♥Breaking Dawn

2009-10-23T23:19:00.000-07:00

i guess its a never ending story

this whole week was a mess
♥

hectic week and miserable
past two weeks
complete undeniable
mess up

she's wondering what is she good in?
pretending that everything will be okay?
guess what?
she'll pretend for the sake of his comfort zone

lately ; friends do have trouble
mostly over the most silly things
that girl avoided all of them
SO! IS HER FAULT
everytime say sorry
sorry doesn't sound sincere anymore

romeo ;take me where i belong

Chapter20; <3 hearts him

2009-10-23T00:59:00.000-07:00

she hearts him forever;

The greatest healing therapy is friendship and love'- Hubert Horatio Humphrey

his is her special one ;]
she mean it
she really wanna spend the whole life loving him ;]
because his is her prince
her soul mate

* dance with me through the moonlight ; tell me how much you love me

Chapter19 ; FCUK!

2009-10-22T03:00:00.000-07:00

SEE THIS THE FUCKING WHOLE POINT IM WRITING FCUK AS MY BLOGPOST!

3.35Pm
I broke my own promise again.
Dis time its i msg'ed him but he din't reply .
Nevermind, Macam friends ....
SHyt! i have this miserable feeling for two weeks de.. since dat fcuking trials start.

See!RULES ARE MEANT TO BE OBEY !
BUT FOR ME BROKEN SEEMS TO BE CORRECT
next time i must really makesure that NO ONE will influence me.
okay... I really can't concentrate studying anything i do .
But will freeking stare ad phone for no reasons .
x tau wan siapa msg me pun!

RULES ARE EXCEPTIONAL FOR ME

its just for me ; maybe not whoever but ME !

when i writing this ;

my hands are trembling . heart insecure. mind wandering!

good combo?

see i still can't face him for another huge and big reason.

oh ..piano ; cure my heart

even i play my favourite songs , still got mistakes here

and there

i cant even perfect that sonatina i always play

i had been playing for 3 years

and i even got the highest award for this song.

maybe something wrong with my mood .

its been worst since last two weeks but recently worst still

sleepless night ; lol

put some nice pictures so noneed to see my english macam kns .

♫is he a stranger? why does our distances seems to be futher apart.

Chapter18; Run

2009-10-21T03:01:00.000-07:00

;[
today i felt so hopeless
yahhh! i felt dissapointed today
i still don't get it why is he indirectly affecting me?
im so tired ; restless
i found one song that suit my emotions

this song is run; leona lewis

I'll sing it once for you;
Then we really have to go;
you've been the only thing right
in all i've done

And i can barely look at you
But everytime single I do
I know We''ll make it anywhere
away from here

Light up,light up
as if you have a choice
even if you cannot hear my voice
i'll be right here bside you ,dear

Louder.louder
and we'll run for our lives
i can hardly speak,I understand
why you can't raise your voice and say

i think i might not see those eyes
make it so hard to cry
and as we say our long goodbye
i nearly do

Chapter17 ;INSECURITY

2009-10-20T03:08:00.000-07:00

is INSECURITY ;
she don't know how to explain this term ;
forgive her
★
darn! i argue with him again
over the silly-iest thing...
wth! im angry over the worst reason of all
his busy having trials
yet! i'm so bored
I seriously maybe not knowing what i did but is already past
★
last msg he sent;
20oct2009 2.56pm
Zz... im seriously sry

★

To realize the value of ONE YEAR

ask a student who failed his or her AP exam

To realize the value of One Month

ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby

To realize the value of ONE WEEK

ask an editor of a weekly magazine

To realize ONE DAY

ask a daily wage laborer who has six kids to feed

To realize the value of ONE HOUR

ask the lovers who are waiting to meet

To realize the value of ONE MINUTE

ask a person who missed their train

To realize the value of ONE SECOND

ask a person who survived an accident

To realize the value of ONE MILISECOND

ask the person who won a silver medal in olympics

★

Chapter 16;summer love ;]

2009-10-19T19:16:00.000-07:00

i am missing you ;]
as always and always be

Chapter16; ★Tiefstand meines Herzens

2009-10-15T23:51:00.000-07:00

★
nowadays everything so different ;
feelings; are like fireworks
anytime;
explode
★
There are questions below answer it from your heart
1. What do girls really want beside money?
2.What do you really understand her?
3. Would you want to spend your whole life loving her; protecting her?
4. Would you cherish your moments with her without regret?
5. Would you defend her no matter what circumstances it takes?
6.Would you promise not make her cry ; not even a drop of tears ?
7. Would you run a thousand miles just to make her yours?
★
After finish answering the questions; tell her how much she meant to you
Because if you really do; you'll reflect every lil.single things that both of you share together ;]
Tell her that you still care

Chapter 15 ;★ Dreams

2009-10-15T19:31:00.000-07:00

Blogs = Gone for past few months

30/9
Whole noon been sleaping like a pig LOLxP
i already abandon my lunch and Mr. Leow LOL!
Yesterday night i couldn't sleep or nowadays i rarely sleep.
Confession seems to be the most weird .
I couldn't get things rite.
Seriously asking me whether i regret?
Nah ! I don't think so / I mean mostly .

Somebody did confess
I really shocked me .
I kinda look back when I was with him
But couldn't regret or recall most of it [ sorry ]
Im still wandering why does he want to talk bout past?
It took me months to get over it ;
facing you make me stand in the most difficult position
The facts that most things i remember tonight ;
is just gonna make me lie to you that i will NOT remember
Come to forgiving?
I did long time ago.

1/10
2 more days to prom
I mean +1 day...

2/10
When out dinner with Mr.Leow. Lol
I make him wait for me half and hour.
LOL
left my money at home ; drop by bank and withdraw 300
Watched far cry
I don't understand that whole story ...
Tonite gurney so blank ..
HUMANLESS.

4/10
omg ! today prom.!!
afternoon ; netcity PLAYING xdo; skills gone...

5/10
Beatiful night mare. Yesterday, i dreamt bout ama again
This time is kinda worst than usual
is at the motuary and of course old folk home[which ama never go ther b4]
I still remember is 3.35am when i just stare at my phone

Oh.. noon got scolding
Cus i made damien come over.
Aunty got angry suddenly ...

><'' my fault provoke her anger dat day. and dat day we are more speechless that usual .\

12/10

HAPPY BFDAY TO DAMIEN TAN

15/10
ama bfday ...
both AmA!
left one alive.
happyy bfday<3 i cried whole nite through.
and the present i bought i left near but somewhere far from me
tell me ; dat you will give me courage

16/10
today morning i confront him lol;
mr. Leow lol...
nevermind whatever...
i will go off tmo i think most probably

Chapter14 ; Falling in love

2009-09-05T03:29:00.000-07:00

Chapter is about fall in love
She's started a new chapter with him
and she thinks of him
Falling in love =]
Listen to it xD
★

I don’t know but

I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

★

Chapter13 ; Star falls ★

2009-09-04T04:19:00.000-07:00

★
When do we see star falls?
It's like never
Do we see moon when rains?
It's like hardly
Where do we go when we need someone ?
Its like ALWAYS the same old place
and is THAT SOMEONE that mould us to be who we are
Are we grateful?
Its like sometimes
★
Yesterday
She was made to do everything new in dis world
Yesterday was a main history
Somewhat she wanted it to happen
She spent her night in the concert performing
It was a superb- concert i guess
★
Spotlights!!
Come on! Its like so long she never play solo
and was made to yesterday!
She's not well informed
She took 3days to memorize 6pieces of songs with 4 pages long scores
She dint know what is like to actually feel stress
★
She hated everything right from the dress she's wearing till make up
and she most probably hate the feeling of spotlight in the concert
It was a bareback-les dress
Black long dress ==!
Dint know what the code of attire for this function
So . is good that they had the attire prepared for her
★
During that night she met ;
A guy ; concert master was a french guy
She dint even greet him ; because she couldn't speak french that well anyway
cukupcukup makan weee~
★
When for solo; then duet
Never even practiced before
and thanks to Dylan
He made an effort to come and made the arrangement
oh he even gave encouragement
She felt so worry of her performance
and it was not Dylan that made her calm off
It was him★
Every single interval; she msg'ed him
It was close; he was nice=]
She received a bouquet of flowers ;[purple orchids ]
It's something like a mark of respect between her and the concert master
Whole night was fascinating;
many people around the states and foreigners performed
★
Fall in love with the harp ;
Harp is an instrument;
that play the melody with plucking the strings
She admired the harpist
Harp ;consists of many octave;
and it is delicate instrument ;
and She finds it Beautiful;quiet and cold
Accompany by orchestra for ballad songs
★
The whole concert end with medley
and she won =]
Most promising musician award =]
Never expected *gasp
★
poof !
went back =]
★

Chapter13; Viva Him★

2009-09-03T00:41:00.000-07:00

★
你說我對你緊緊跟隨
You say I follow you to closely
你覺得疲憊
and you’re sick of it.
你一句話就
Your words had
逼我撤退
forced me to retreat.
沒想到你說最近選擇
(I) didn’t expected it when you recently said
一個人睡
you want to sleep alone.
我忍住眼淚
I’m holding in my tears.
我尊重眼淚
I’m respecting my tears.
★
孤獨萬歲
Viva solitary.
失戀無罪!
Heart break is not a crime!
誰保證一覺醒來有人陪
Who can guarantee to have someone to accompany you right when you wake up.
我對於人性早有預備
i’ve already been prepared for humanity.
還不算太黑
It’s not considered that dark.
獨身萬歲
Viva the single life.
失戀無罪!
Heart break is not a crime!
愛不夠愛你的人才受罪
Not loving the person that loves you enough is the one that suffers.
用過去悲傷換來自由
Use the past and sorrow to exchange freedom.
難道不珍貴
Isn’t that precious.
一個人崩潰
(I’m) crumbling alone,
不是在犯罪
not commiting a crime.
★

★she's crying over him★

Chapter 12; Him★

2009-09-01T22:39:00.000-07:00

★
In school she wrote a letter about him;
she was damn free the whole day ;]
and tmo is MORAL paper ;[
yeee!
★
She wrote ;

Him ★
I really don't understand what you're thinking now.
Right now ;] all I want is you to trust me
Give me your heart =]
Trust me with it

Do you know how much you meant to me?
Alot@ @
no VACANCY BUT EMPTINESS WITHOUT YOUR LOVE
★ does he ever notice her?
★she needs him more than he ever know =[

THROUGH THE RAIN =]
it reflects what my feeling currently ;]
something is missing =[
and loneliness killing her
★
When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep cryin out to be saved but nobody comes
And you feel so far away that you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's ok, won't you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it
through the rain

And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly and
you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it
through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you, you'll never pull through

Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And I can make it through the rain and stand up once again
And I live one more day and I, I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can,
You're gonna make it through the rain

★She's in love with him★

Chapter 13; Independent ★

2009-09-01T04:46:00.000-07:00

★
she's asking his forgiveness
she feeling so down today
She need him=[
Is he playing her?
If it is ? How long!!
She's tired T.T
she never had fall for a guy so hard ;
But this time is hard yet fast
★
Why does she giving herself excuses to BE PATIENCE?
Is her attitude not to be patience with guy!
She's asking why him?!
And she got an answer
★BECAUSE HIS THE GUY SHE WANTED TO BE WITH
★NOW AND FOREVER
★
Today morning got a fright of my whole life
I thought is exam
Manatau is =] no EXAM
weee~
TODAY CELEBRATING MERDEKA THINGY AT MY SCHOOL =]
so boring but WE[kat; mumu;adad;titi;leefern;me ] sing OUR HEART OUT
weee~
Pn.Sharifah was our guest of the day
I remembered we [ amee; me and joyce ] used to be in her room
and she will sound like this
'' I tell you so many times ; Why are you so rebellious ? Uphold CGL image ''
'' I wan see three of you to be sucessfull ; and i'm waiting for the good news''
'' I'm sure you will changed; and you will thanked me one fine day ''
★
I did thank her =]
She even remember me =]
and she heard teacher's praising me =]
Pn. Latha lolx
★ i changed xD
whole day at school nothing do =] then i go to jie home =]
whole day keluar do research about course
Jie was whining xD
She angryxD
Her sir chia us kfc / and i bought keyboard xD
★

★cherry waiting for the ONE AND ONLY director of HER LIFE=]★

Chapter 12 ; Promises

2009-08-31T07:16:00.000-07:00

He promised to take her hands
if it a secret ;
He took back all his words ;
Hurtful,
She was happy !
But will it last ??
She's trusting every litle single miny words he told her
It's just how she fall for him

She din't care what he had done
Because that's what the wonderful when you fall for somebody
HIM

She's in love with him

Chapter 11; Complications★

2009-08-30T19:14:00.000-07:00

''It's twilight, '' Edward murmured, looking at the western horizon , obscured as it was with clouds. His voice was thoughtful, as if his mind were somewhere far away. I stared at him as gazed unseeingly out the windshield .
I was still staring when his eyes suddenly shifted back to mine.
'' It's the safest time of day for us,'' he said , answering the unspoken question in my eyes.
''The easiest time . But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night . Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?'' He smiled wistfully.
''I like the night. Without dark. we'd never see the stars.''I frowned. ''Not that you see the here much''
He laughed,and the mood abruptly lightened.
twilight
★

Yesterday,she was by the beach
sitting alone and dreaming while writing a post on the blog
She's lost and confused
★
Whole night broadband went haywire
So it;s our love digi
the yellow man
I'm like stucked alone at the beach while my friends enjoying merdeka eve
Katrina asked me whether am i going clubbing tonight
I'm like hell NO! stopped clubbing
SAY NO TO CLUBBING xD
got several invitation to party weee~
but end up >< PPK PeoplexD
yesterday was so tired
my partner of the night
twilight book and laptopxD
and i cant be with the beach because it will make me cryT.T
anyway, is ok I CRY LOUDLY weee~
Dad and mum still call me baby
shh.
my dark little secret xD
yesterday weather was damn nice >< din't rainxD
be happy for it ><
★
when i got home; got stupid 38 visitor
38monkeyxD and her wife><38>
until now i still don't know their name><
she will kill me !!wee~
Guild got stupid and 38 gathering at 10 at segafredo
@@
I was invited= =
Yesterday got scolding from aunty
BECAUSE
they came and I was not at home
><'' see wa kong liau they is 38
IT'S DIGI FAULT!!!!!
I went with them finally;
I went about 20 minutes then terbang jor= =
I met banyak gamers !OMG!!!
I met my game partner @@''
DIA IALAH BOY@@''
sumore lie to me!!!
say dia tomboy@@''[who care's ]
GO DIE !!!
Sumore bring dia punya real gf@@
intro to me walala~
we are just FRIENDS!
at sega celebrating dia punya bfday@@''20th
Now i got it ; why 38monkey and panda wanted me go so much
Guild ranking up top 20 jorxD
Thanks to saya punya member la
They wan tangkap me go clubbing ishhhhhhh
me terbang home better
Go sleep better~

★
Maid is going home in 10days time
house chores@@
im doing the laundaryxD

★still need edward guy★

Chapter 10; ★CLINGING ♥

2009-08-29T22:39:00.000-07:00

★
definition of clinging
to adhere closely ;
stick to;
hold on tight;
as by grasping or embracing each other;
to be or remain close;
★
she walks by the beach;
passing through couple's
she left a bottle by the beach;
in the letter wrote;
★
Do you know ? Your hurting me indirectly ;
But does it matter now?
Obviously ; it doesn't since the first second i fall for you
I wondering why would there boundaries between us
Remember what we used to talk about ?
Remember where we meet?
Remember what we did?
I know because u meant so much to me
Every little single thing you said to me
Hurtful , cold and warm touch
I will never forget
Although you may seem so cold ;
Very cold; self centred ;
that is very indeed close to edward characters;[twillight]
But i'm sure and felt so warm with your presence here
By the time you realise i wouldn't be sure of your reactions
★
I don't know why i'm attracted to you
Is there reason for it ?
A reason to say no! NEED NOT TO HAVE REASON!
I have tons of reasons ;
Because i felt warmth with you
Because you gave me secure feeling
Because you gave me irresistible feeling
Your love is my anti natural-depressant
Your love helped me to re-discover myself
Just being with you feels like I can defy the whole world
I like your small gestures that speak volumes about how much you care.
★
Everything i like about you=]
your cold shoulder ; your pale face; your seductive voice
ALL THIS MAKE ME ATTRACTED TO YOU
★
One thing i wanted you to tell me;
is how much i meant to you
All my hope is=]
Can we just DON'T care what people will say ?
and kept it a secret to oneself

★
or being with me is something to be you afraid?
embrassed? or what? can you just tell me?
please don't pretend what you're feeling

★

★cherry needs an answer ; that come from your heart★

♥ その過剰；不幸

2009-08-29T02:42:00.000-07:00

♥
It's Over
She kept thinking of him =(
♥
They run out of reasons;
They run out of words and time ;
She's waiting for him;
She's needs him more than anything else
She's paying it again
Her sins ;
Glimpse through the window
befall of the snow;
★
She feeling sad
She wrote;
It's kinda big obbession
It's ridiculous
It's been months
and some reasons is just that she's just
can't get over it
But she determine
waiting for him
★

★starmoon★

Chapter9; him ♥

2009-08-28T19:04:00.001-07:00

him ♥
his someone i look to every morning
his; someone i will lay my heart safely on
his; someone i'm trying hard to understand
his; someone i dream of each night
his; someone bad guy i would think of
his; someone that i would just walkaway and turn back
his;someone would take my breath away
his;someone would just soar your wings and fly away
his; someone you dance with in the night
his;untouchable
his;charming
his;polite[gentleman]
his;endurance
his; la tua cantante
his; near to perfectionist
his ; somebody; i would simply adore

♥my sunshine ♥

Chapter 8; Warm touch♥

2009-08-27T18:02:00.000-07:00

is 9.16 morning when im going start blogging walala~
I really don't know what to type larrr

Yesterday ; wanted to be in gurney with her
♥katrina ; gila partner xD
but da idiot stupid farkless digi created havoc
*gasp = farkless is not in dictonary kay
i wanted to call him
another gila ppl to borrow car;
each time i asked he will be
john; joanne,i know what car, right ? !
me; en lar^^ . if cant nvm lor * sour face
john; aiyoyo! your monkey attitude made me so sick !
and finally walala ~ CAR
*his favourite sentence
[see im your good buddy] remember all the words he said
BUT HOR!yesterday i feel like sreaming digi!
for GOOD AND BAD!
ishhhh!! no call no CAR!
cancel joey pulak ishh!
thanks to you ;[ yellow man

then whole evening was skype-ing
ad netcity&usually with xdo
with some bunch of mandarin human
they say me banana girl =[
or ORANG CINA BUKAN CINA!
ishhh@@''
anyway i recongnize some stupid mandarin words
weee~ learning xD
i remember why i'm in cgl afterall
BECAUSE WHEN i write chinese word in mandarin
I WILL CRY AND CRY!=[
even my mandarin name i still cant write properly
so, xD im a bendan xD

then ; im thinking a stupid theme for my slideshow for prom
well; again prom! i can't make up my mind ;
our lame school says ;
can't bring boys
;[

oh ya!! i sudah makan chicken rice for every of my dinner !
dis week;[ most of the time
yeeee!no money eat chicken rice @@gt money eat sushi
night fly home ! ad home macam gud girlxD
afk ad xdo==

ishhh!!
night me on msn and stupid skype again
skype ppl all die de haix
and msn ppl so luan omg!!
omg!! imagine one room chat 6 ppl@@
duno wtf edwin invite me in for!
sumore they interrogate my birthday
MAIN QUESTION WAS
what I want ?
it was thing that they 110% cant fufill
is HIM♥*sigh
♥ sunshine my heart
♥air that i breathe ,O2
*sigh
whole convo i hardly talk omg !! is more to boys talk [ cars ; girls; money ;clubbing]
sei edwin wanna be so called fashion designer =.=!!
and dia punya friend pulak talk bout law to me @@

msn i talk to him;]♥
since so many days we became strangers;
suddenly,back to friends
weeeeeee~
after msn; msg pulak and hp hang 4 times
the power of hang phone weee~
suddenly i felt weird
lie why on earth my phone will hang when im msg=ing
*sigh need change new phone maybe cus to laoya
♥
morning when for medical check -up
doctor says; low sugar level, low blood pressure, low blood count
me; *gasp i regret droping bio xD ; i don't even understand anything he says
thinking whatever~
♥
noon stuck at my usual place
xD aunty told me i need to admit there is lik OMG!!!
yeee~ she din't want me to admit there so we went back to see doctor
I got special privillage ; nt stay there
♥
night was :] fun
;] talk wid him
*sometimes so kek ki and so weird la
semua emotion pun ada~
he sounded lik more to stupid jason lee
yee~ im happy ;] for what he brings me
mr tan;]♥
i dunno what to say lol
because your something special ;]
wee~ ♥

♥ because she needs you more

Chapter 7: Breakthrough Night ♥

2009-08-26T01:52:00.000-07:00

day after day;
night after night ;
i'm walking away from the shadow of a person ;
we seem to be stranger at this moment;
Is how we met or never

Emotion is controlling me;
Right now;
I'm telling and pulling me through;
but is HOPELESS

I wanted to stay away from you so badly;
Yet wanna be with you ;
I just wanna walk over ;
I bet you can just walk over easily;
Because to you emotion is nothing

Boundary seems to be the PERFECT word;
Sometimes,
I felt your presence as a
cold; heartless,selfish creature on earth;
But it made me wanna close to you even more;
It regain my own strength;
and just wanna see you fall and crawl like the way i do;
something to near yet to far ;

To me life is just like a battlefield;
For me victory isn't a matter afterall ;
is what i learned after i fall;
Right now, i'm just going let it go;
cold as ice;
dark and quiet night;
I'm walking away from the hatred and illusion world that i used to live with

I surrender everything
Just to live another time
♥my inspiration; no more hatred

Lol
It's been days since i last go to gym;
i went and the first person I saw was NICHALIE=
OMG! yeeeeeee~
i hated him so much;
I cant hide from him forever
So. I met him with a bunch of friends;
and we hangout at the lounge together

I was pissed off;
by his unreasonable attitude ;
I wanted a vodka so much ; its like my medicine;
end up with the mocktail;
is call blue ice;
It really cure my feeling that time ;
wohhoooo
I took only 2 glass xD
and was like haywire@@
I guess is better than chocolates;
it's like catalyst ; react faster and better

John was singing at the lounge
The damn stupid barney song
*sigh ^^ im thinking of mum
and i the only song i was listening to was
Sorry seems to be the hardest word ;blue
I can't help crying
i already forgave him and we're just friends xD

we went for dinner xD
it was salmon streak
my all time favourite
and then to the pool where we enjoy oursleves
before going home
walala~

dis morning i gt a stupid and rude morning call from dat babi
babi josh!
morning2 suruh i go jogging
so lazy and he's doing the same thing tmo
omg!! i cant survive anymore
is holiday!! is my dreamlandxD
then whole afternoon stuck infront of the computer
editing some stuff for xdo xD

and i heard dis song
Go check it out
Homeless by Leona Lewis
Thats what im feeling right now!
=) walala~
*ps ; if don't mind drop me some comment at the chat box bout dis song! xD

♥she's missing him♥

♥ shine♥ chapter6♥

2009-08-24T07:32:00.000-07:00

walala~
today morning i m planning to sit at netcity again !
manatau katrina ask me outxD
Go gurney

She was damn nice; fetch me there and back
Then we went for that breeks for lunch
I had spaggethi mushroom and lemonade
walala~
After ; for movie
GIJOE [mission classified]
woots! Is 9 out of 10 i supposed ;)

Then to padini XD
OMG! i wanted that shirt so much T,T
ohya!! we actually shopping for prom
*sigh it reminds me of him again
Seriously, I'm hesitating to go prom
But then again ; i found a dress
Its kinda nice ; and it not that expensive either
I'm keeping myslef busy during prom; doing the system thingy

Then we went some window shopping
and buy a Blouse i guess *
LOL [ELEMENT]

Ini at NICCHI

This looks weird haix dis stupid dress is fit for me@@ but in photo macam sai
MACAM PREGNANT PPL!or maybe im NOT photogenicxD

Dis at Next SHOP!
Left is Katrina [ tight fitting dress]
Right is me [ lOOSE andT-back style dress ] *sigh i look damn fat
T.T

Night i went for litle xdo time at netcity xD
sapu ppl today
and im happy dint let anyone sapu me

♥ UNTRAPMENT

2009-08-23T08:22:00.000-07:00

I've learned so many things
from the experiences we've been through
but the hardest lesson, yet, to learn
is how to "unlove" you

I've learned not to fall so hard-
not to fall in love so fast
because, as quickly as it comes into your life,
it can quickly become your past

I've learned not to trust- so much,
to read between the lines
because, if I had known what I now know
I would have known you were never mine

I've learned not to be so open
not to wear my feelings on my face
because, they can be used against you
like they were.. in my case

I've learned to be more honest
to express how I feel
because, you never knew how I felt
because, I kept my feelings sealed

I've learned not to be so accepting
to put someone else before me
because, when I did this for you
you never fulfilled my needs

I've learned it is not always best
to give out a second chance
because when I did this for you
you took me for granted

I've learned not to be so nice
not to be so believing
because you forsook my love
and mistook my kindness for weakness

I've learned NOT to believe
that absence makes the heart grow fonder
because when I tried to give you your space
it made your heart wander

I've learned NOT to be so forgiving
and to try to make things work
because when I did this for you
I only got myself hurt

I've learned so many things
from the experiences we've been through
but the hardest lesson, yet, to learn
is how to "unlove" you

♥capricorn; unicorn lover♥

2009-08-20T23:47:00.000-07:00

The Capricorn woman is not just an ordinary woman. Often too serious and mature, she is just waiting for a "warmer" atmosphere meant to allow her to be herself. She won’t be caught gossiping or talking about trifle things, but if she happens to become the centre of attention, you must be prepared for a good laugh.

The Capricorn woman possesses unimaginable resources, many of which are tempered by the fame of this astrological sign as an "old" one. She rather thinks that she doesn’t need to cast pearls before swine.
At first sight, you might be shocked by the Capricorn woman’s lack of charms due to her not paying attention to her way of dressing or to make-up. However, a man claming to be a woman expert, will know how to unleash this hidden femininity and let it manifest naturally and spontaneously. It will reveal in pale hues and elegant lines, which combine old cuts with the latest , all in a conscious neglect of shapes and fragrances.

At first glance, the Capricorn woman doesn’t strike anybody, but her separating from the others, her being silent and her convenient and significant interventions, with a good sense of humour, will make her presence noticed. The Capricorn woman knows how to blend the Pisces woman’s ineffective romanticism with the Scorpio woman’s deliberate assault. So don’t be surprised if you suddenly turn into the main character of a great love affair, which implies both the required discretion and the erotic weapons that you didn’t even guess she had.

The Capricorn woman’s presence in your life could count as a book about lost civilizations or as the entire cinema programme for the last three months. She has a special relation with time, which will lead you to believe that she came either too late or too early into your life
Weird * gasp * 80% are true xD

A Capricorn woman may decorate the society columns, smile demurely behind a political candidate husband or pour mysterious liquids into test tubes. But whatever she's doing and whatever she's wearing, Saturn will rule her actions and her secret aims.

She can be ultra-feminine, flirtatious and charming enough to make a man feel like a giant grizzly bear who can protect her from the cold, cruel world. Or she can be icy, quiet and aloof, sitting securely on her marble pedestal and challenging you to be clever enough to win her superior hand. Whichever personality she projects, underneath her womanly wiles or her practical, sensible manner, she has the same goal-a steely determination to snag the right man, who can become important, make her proud and be a good father to her children.

So many Capricorn women are career girls, you might think love and marriage would always be a second choice. With love, you have a point. With marriage, no. The thing to understand is that the Capricorn goals are security, authority, respect and position. It makes little difference if these needs are supplied in front of a blackboard as a school teacher, behind a desk as an executive, or beside an ambitions husband whose social life and home she can manage with easy grace and careful planning. One way or another, the Capricorn woman will get her recognition. Some of them get it by writing books, lecturing, painting or composing music. It's surprising how many Capricorns of both sexes have unusual artistic talent.

This is a little delicate, but even the Saturn females you find in burlesque theaters or engaging in the world's oldest profession (there will be only a handful) will end up by marrying the top comic or the theater owner in the first instance-or the wealthiest client in the second. The unicorn must climb. Whether the starting position is high or low, the top of the hill is where she finds the view more satisfying. There's nothing flashy about the Capricorn female. You'll certainly never see her loudly or obviously pushing and shoving for first place; you may even think she's docile enough to contentedly take a back seat to her competition.

Don't be misled into thinking she'll never sacrifice her career for marriage. Just give this girl half a chance to be a social leader and the mistress of a well-run household, and you'll see how quickly she loses interest in her job (one of the few things she'll do quickly). If you need her to, the Capricorn woman will gladly continue working to help you climb up the mountain of success-she won't be lazy. Otherwise, however, she's happier enjoying her position as your wife, provided the position is a good one, and there's enough financial security.

One of the most typical and delightful things about this woman is her natural breeding and grace of manner. You can meet a Capricorn girl who was raised in a one-room shack across the railroad -tracks, or whose father works the swing shift in a coal mine, but unless she decides to reveal her background (which she probably won't), you'll be convinced she comes from an old-line family, and was turned out by one of the best finishing schools. Such is the Capricorn built-in sense of social grace and conservative, conventional appearances.

Any man who's involved in a relationship with the female unicorn should learn a basic fact about this Sun sign.
She seems to be more even-tempered and emotionally steady [ am i ? *gasp * soon i think ] than she actually is.
Her manner may convince you that she's as firm as a rock and nothing can ruffle her calm surface[ is a 30-70 thing]
The truth is that she's subject to many moods. All women are subject to moods, you say, but the Capricorn girl can have some really black and long-lasting ones. If she feels mistreated or unappreciated, she'll brood for days, weeks, even months. She calls it being sensible or practical, but Saturnine gloominess, pessimism and depression are much more deeply rooted than that.
They're triggered by fear of the future, worry about the present, shame over the past-or a suspicion that she's being made fun of or is inadequate in some way. These women do not accept teasing light *fasp * usually notxD.
Keep it at a minimum. To be honest, they find it impossible to see the joke when they're the victims. You don't have to bury her in compliments constantly (she'll sense when they're insincere, anyway), but don't kid her about important matters, and praise her often enough to make her realize you know her true value.

It's hard for her to relax in romantic situations. There's plenty of physical desire under the cool Capricorn surface, far more than most people suspect, and it's never satisfied casually. Sitting around and wasting time with breathless hugs and ecstatic kisses while the future is still hanging unsettled is definitely not her favorite hobby-yet once she's decided you're the right man and the finances are secure or your ambition is sufficient, shell be as warm as a cuddly panda, affectionate, and even passionate. Capricorns don't believe in vague dreams that glide aimlessly through a misty, blue sky. They want to know where the ship of romance is taking them, and that it's sailing on safe waters. Build a firm foundation under your house if you plan to carry a Capricorn girl over the threshold. Make sure there's plenty of insurance and the mortgage is paid off or will be soon.

Shell probably be something of a social butterfly, extremely aware of etiquette, and she'll lean toward quaint customs like engraved napkin rings and needlepoint chairs. Things must be correct and tradition must be observed at all costs. She may have an inconsistent habit of wanting to shop in the most expensive, exclusive stores, yet insisting on a bargain. She doesn't mind buying a dress that's on sale, as long as it bears the right label.

Capricorn women have a fresh beauty of their own. You'll rarely find one who's not unusually attractive. Yet they are timid and unsure about their appearance, and you may find them needing constant reassurance that they're pretty. Although Capricorn females hate dishonesty in all forms, they're not above lying about their ages. They usually get away with it, too, thanks to the odd Saturn aging twist. They look like little old ladies as children, then bloom suddenly into women who look like young girls when they're past the prime of life.

It would be a terrible mistake to snub her family. The man who marries a Capricorn girl marries her relatives. There's no point in thinking that yours is different. She's not. Somewhere along the line, you'll stop laughing at mother-in-law jokes (you may cry instead). Many times, the Saturn female is the sole support of her family, financially or morally or both. She may care for an ill parent with devotion to the point of relinquishing the idea of marriage completely. Often, she'll enjoy the sacrifice because of her honest love for her family, but even if she resents it, her strong sense of responsibility and duty will not permit her to escape.

You might as well resign yourself to flattering your mother-in-law, and hope she's a great gal who's worth it. Don't argue politics with her father, and if you must criticize her brothers and sisters, see that the criticism is constructive, and based on a sincere belief in their potentialities. Frequently, Capricoms find themselves burdened with distressed or invalid relatives, and the typical will never let love, however consuming it might be, cause them to neglect such obligations.
You'd better start right out by planning to have a guest room or two for visiting relatives. But there's a reverse benefit. You'll have a wife who is kind and considerate toward your own family. The Capricorn girl will understand if you have to allocate a fixed sum to your parents each week, and she'll probably be a companion to your brothers and sisters. She's the kind of girl you take home to meet mother, and mother approves of her immediately*in some case lolx . Since men are so contrary, such instant encouragement can cause them to back away. It's always more fun to fight objections for your lady fair. But you'll only be slicing off your nose to spite your heart, because your mother is right. The Capricorn girl, if she's a typical Saturn woman, will make an excellent wife i dont think so *gasp im not good in cookingxD. The home of a Capricorn woman often looks so effortlessly spotless [when my maid is herexD] and smooth-running you'd think there were little fairies and elves hiding in the comers, working away furiously after midnight to shine and polish and cook and clean. Wrong. The very last place you can expect to find such imaginary creatures is around a Capricorn. The Saturn practicality and faith in firm facts ordinarily precludes any sympathy with the unseen. A Capricorn girl wouldn't believe in leprechauns if one sat right on the tip of her nose. In all fairness, however, although she may not be a way-out dreamer or a follower of occult mysteries, once she has the solid facts she's able to see the romance and poetry in the most ordinary situations.

Hers is an earthy kind of beauty that can make even the gross and ugly seem lovely with sheer usefulness. She's not a stranger to the gypsy spell of the north wind, nor is she deaf to the silver song of spring showers and the call of a lonely skylark. Great music stirs her deeply, and she's an enchanted patron of almost any art form. Perhaps she has to see and touch magic to believe in it. A leprechaun would probably get much further with her if he came right out and said where that pot of gold is hidden, instead of hinting about it in fairy tales.

Actually, she's a true romantic, with greater imagination than the scatterbrains with unreal fantasies. Every January girl has haunting poetry in her soul, but she doesn't have much sympathy for poets who starve in attics. Take care of the food and rent and then pursue the dream, whatever it may be, is the Capricorn motto. Also make sure that the dream is worth pursuing. She sees nothing glamorous or magical about failure.

You may have to share your Capricorn wife with causes. She'll be a tireless worker for the poor and the defenseless, but she may prefer to show her charity in group efforts, rather than to individuals. Saturnine sympathies are usually organized, seldom scattered. Female Capricoms are natural leaders of women's clubs.

She'll probably instill both thrift and a respect for quality in the youngsters
To her, economy does not have to mean cheap. The children will be expected probably learn excellent manners [ do i have one?]. They won't be pampered or allowed to willfully disobey. If you give her a book on child psychology[ i love child psychology ], she may use it to paddle an unruly offspring and get around to reading it later. She may be a little strict and unsympathetic to their growing pains, but she'll be a fascinated audience for their achievements. who will never be too busy to give her youngsters her interest and attention.
Although she lose more than she'll gain.

Since many Capricorn females have sensitive skin, they don't wear much make-up. Lots of them are allergic to it. But nature rewarded them with natural beauty that needs little gilding, and they'll keep it long after the roses have faded from the cheeks of other women. Some of them startle you with lovely complexions, firm features and bright eyes at the age of eighty and older.

Patiently help your Capricorn woman overcome her lack of personal confidence. She's not unimaginative just because she doesn't court delusion. Try on a couple of her practical dreams for size, and you'll find they're surprisingly comfortable. Stubbornness may be one of her vices, but she's not a whiner or a nervous nag. She'll push you toward success, yet be tender and devoted. In spite of her modest, often gentle ways, she'll know just how to twist you around her little finger. There's a deep richness in her love that's more lasting than the brittle, scorching, demanding love of other women.
Who says she doesn't believe in fairy tales? Only a wise Capricorn maiden could look deep into the eyes of an awkward frog and see that he's really a prince in disguise. Not only that-if you marry her, youll never run out of clean socks.

♥私はあなたがいなくて残念に思います；私は常にそうします私はあなたがいなくて残念に思います；私は常にそうします

2009-08-20T23:22:00.000-07:00

je vous aime vraiment ; et je toujours faise

when she's walking by the beach
it was a cold night
and lonely enough
The days were endless.
The nights even longer. I didn't know when the day would come that I would see my old self again.
The cancer was killing me slowly, and I was there because i had tried to kill myself so i wouldn't have to live with the terminal cancer anymore.
It hurt me so much.
I couldn't bare it.

Staring at the blank hospital walls was making me crazy.

Of course I knew i would never escape the scars that lined my white wrists.

No one ever does.

My voice is hoarse and scratches my throat on the way out of my mouth, "Can I go home?" I ask quietly to the boy walking by.
"i don't know" he says.
"I'm ready to leave." I sob
"i'm sorry."
I let out an exhausted sigh. I only want to go home. To see my family one last time. I want to go home so i can die knowing they forgive me. I look up slowly at the nurse. His eyes sparkle. Tears spring to mine. "I just want to see them." I whisper, "Please, let me see them."
"You're sick?" he asked, I sigh and nod.

The boy is delicate and beautiful. His brown hair flops into his eyes and his lips part. My mind is consumed with thoughts of him and i know he isn't thinking about me. Can anyone love an emo girl with cancer?
My thoughts are no.

♥ ti amo♥

♥ Resonance ♥ Chapter 5

2009-08-18T23:17:00.000-07:00

phew !! today i just finish chemistry 3 and chemistry 4 !
i guess its kinda hard you know= =
i made huge mistake by exchanging the value of initial and final value
after exam is like OMG! huge mistake ! because i correct it @@

Today early morning i went over to the HAPPY MART lolx
buying comb because i left it at home
Lazy walk back *gasp*
Bought twiggies for breakfast * mine is chocolate
When reach school ; guess what? mumu also bought twiggies
and both of us wanted to give each other xD
but he twiggies is the vanila type
xD

I ate mine finish
we gave our another half to some of our friends
Remember? SHARING IS CARING

♥

Basicly , i'm super tired today xD
Lol
anyway tomorrow i will not be in school again xD
Going for the stupid practical thingy at SG2 driving school
OMG ! is going to be another 3 hours !
i wish i could run awayXD
walala~
sleeping pigxD /shh
half asleep but managed to open stupid eyes to see the chemistry book

after waking up ; this is what i wrote before sleeping xD

aunty was saying ; i asked u to study for your own good but end up ? the book is reading you
During the evening jess asked me out ; Lol
and i send her this xD
She said ; aren't you supposed to be studying CHEMISTRY * your fav. Subject?anyway is MISS YOU apart of CHEMISTRY? i din't know i actually study that xD
I said ; = = !! ! IT WONT GO IN xD

walala ~ gone by the wind ~

♥she's walking away ♥

♥pandora misery ♥ chapter 4♥

2009-08-17T22:22:00.000-07:00

Pandora was the first female person ever created by the Greek gods. Zeus, the King of the gods, ordered from Hephaestus, the blacksmith, to create a female human form out of earth and water and to make her look as beautiful as the gods.

All Olympian gods contributed to create her looks and personality, either in a positive or in a negative way. For instance Aphrodite, the goddess of love, blessed her with beauty and grace, while Apollo, the god of the music, rather seeded lies into Pandora's soul and Hera, the wife of Zeus, blessed her with extreme curiosity. Because of the many gifts she received, she received the name Pandora (pan+dora, i.e. "all the gifts" or "gifts of all").

On her completion, Pandora was given a jar which she was told by the gods not to touch- however, Pandora was an avid personality and couldn't resist lifting the lid. As soon as the jar was open, all evil spirits were brought to light, such as pain, hunger or greed.

Life of Pandora

Zeus sent her as a wife to Epimetheus, Prometheus' simple brother, and gave her a box that he forbade her to open. Despite Prometheus' warnings, Epimetheus allowed her to open the box and let out all the evils that have since afflicted man. Hope alone remained inside the box.

♥her curiousity left her with nothing but misery for life♥

♥Je t'aime et seulement vous

2009-08-17T05:41:00.000-07:00

Le sourire sur votre visage me fait savoir que vous avez besoin de moi

il y a une vérité dans vos yeux disant vous ne me laisserez jamais que

le contact de votre main indique vous m'attraperez quand jamais je
tombe

vous parole il mieux. .when vous dites que rien du tout

toute la journée je peux entendre des personnes parler dehors fort

mais quand vous me tenez près, vous noyez dehors l'essai

de foule comme elles peuvent elles peuvent ne jamais définir

ce qui est dit entre votre coeur et mien

♥JUST FOR YOU♥

♥ reminscence♥ chapter 3♥

2009-08-15T18:20:00.000-07:00

I ask myself, baby why did i end up fallin′ for you?

When I look into your eyes

everything i see is true

I feel how much you care

I know you′re always there

You′re on different path, hate to say good-bye

Why can′t you be with me?

I ask myself, now why couldn′t i call out to you at all?

Every night I pray that you could be here with me

So you could only see

See how much i love you

And how much this is true

Everytime i see you

i didn′t know what to do

Everytime i hold you, i feel all of you

Really wanna tell you, i wouldn′t be able to live without you

Everytime i close my eyes i see you

I can′t bear to see myself without you

Without the comfort you share with me, there′s nothing more i could do

I feel how much you care

i thank you for being there

When i met you didn′t know what to do

When we met I didn′t see the true you

I know and you know that we have been friends and the best of friends

♥doushite=)

Love as cold as ice ♥ meaning xD

It's not your fault those hands are freezing

Borne from those childish days

you carry the scars

Are you afraid to love someone?

You pretend not to see the other side of the words

Like ice, the embraced heart slowly starts to thaw*

For anyone to be loved by someone

Makes life in this world shine

If it was me, I'd make your heart warm once more

With eternal tenderness

Even if fate's mischief pains the heart

On the other side of those tears

A single ray of light will swoop down into the darkness

We know

As strong as the feeling of suffering

we can feel people's warmth

Everyone is searching for a place

That can heal their sadness and loneliness

So... for you, that place is here

Don't be afraid, don't hesitate anymore

My heart is pained

Because this love is so beautiful

don't be afraid

Even if it's just momentarily

I'll let you know my love

This time is beautiful, you know... let you know my love

*gasp nice meaning rite?LOL

*sobbing*

making xdo movie production

after trials

yesterday was home quarantied for mi

i dint go netcityxD

it was between me and the wall

friend was like saying : comeon!! are you insane*? Lets have fun

im liked : sorry! im not in the good mood *stress*

but guess what?

i was out at 11amxD

drove alone ad the road =)

was msg-ing somone *

and *toot*toot*

hp low battT.T

it off by itslef

So,

hokkien lang call* round island*

is like damn freeky

and its damn cold

anyway thanks jess*

trust me with you car =]

its HONDA CRV

kns= = damn hard drive=[

sumore parking need see camera

and gave me like a less half tank oil

LOL

when i was driving half way near Teluk kumbar

i discover im like running out of oil T.T

lucky enough she have a gprs there

shyt* i dint know how to use a gprs

futher more i waited for the damn gprs to charge

So i finally found xD

then i pump rm30

its like less than half bar-0-

OMG

i dare not drive dat car anymore xD

so ; i drove back to her

she's at mois

damn with alot guys

so ; waited for her to fetch me home

i 'm like waiting at segaxD

and i saw CYNTHIA

OMG !

she 's lik damn skinny xD

she like wif EDWIN TAN

im like omg !

so we chat till 3.30am

so ;

JESS came out

and waited at the car=]

we drove homexD

and ym whole body smells liquor

*ewhhhh*

i went to bathe ad4.10am xD

and sleep ad 4.30

*snore zzz*

morning wake up 6.30am

when for jogging xD

then bathe

sleep back =]

then in front of computer

ltr maybe going to

netcity=]

gym=]

penang swimming club=]

things to OCCUPY MY BRAINLESS BRAINxD

♥twillight chapter 3

2009-08-14T16:59:00.000-07:00

its pretty early now xD
5am woots~
i had ntg 2do.
was near 2 the beach
i sat there for quite sometime
like orang bodoh
*sigh*
i promised my mum i would take good care of myslef
answer ;yes, i am xD badly no !
mum: your my litle baby girl! life is like a roller coaster.
be strong.
last word she say then she walked off

during my emo period;
i really wish mum would be there
mum is DAMN IMPORTANT
SHE's MY MOTHER
LOL
she was lol! at the phone sms
mum asked hw's ryan?
im like *what the fuck!
mum; remember dat guy ! dat b0ught u something for lunch. '
he was not like other guy that wanted to kidnap u away xD
me; nit so kua cheong meh?apa kidnap.? bo lang ai xD
anyway he's fine *guess he.
to;d me dat he missed kakak *maid laksa
mum; girl! i know its hard ! be STRONG !=) i hope that youre somebody for me to look up one day,when i need.mum always wanted the best for you! so strive with dilligent.
me; dont wish 2 hard! i unable to do it xD
mum; its up to you,sweety. mom going to prepare breakfast .talk u next time

whatever she saying may help me to overcome it. bUT I NEED DETERMINATION to FINISHED
dat stupid diary still sleeping LOL

sunrise xD

woots~

chapter2 ♥music as a cure

2009-08-13T21:57:00.000-07:00

Morning~
I had my sleep last nite afta achieve a stable octet arrangement
xD is chemistry by the way
yesterday was like my first day sleeping since i became a vampire for like 2 nitesXD

btw!
today i had my maths LOL
train my brains to work early in the morning
Im still feeling sleepy rite now= =
Going to sleep after my gym perhaps xD

♥ something brightens up my dayxD
it was maria LOL
BADDIEEEE MARRRIAxD
i guess amee will oso miss you
♥ im lik talking to her nowxD

*walala~ sry i lazy edit lain kali oni do xD

xD

i was practicing piano
and i thought of him again
*sign *
crying again~
and

lol* sigh is so nice
wish dat i had one

chapter one ♥

2009-08-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

I went to school pretty early today
I was avoiding my mum because she wanted to talk to me over some things
THINGS THAT ARE OVER !
OH GOSH!! IS OVER
Umhm im like sitting for my chemistry paper right now!
My whole paper is like still BLANK
Its gonna end soon! Finishes ad 10.05 now is lik 9.20
I really push myslef hard enough?
Feel like jumping off the cliff
Will it matter now?
SHYT! seems like im the one HAVING PROBLEMS!

I hate him; for what he had done
I hate him; Becuase he make me fall
I hate him ; He just left
I hate him; it remind me of someone
ARGGGGGHHH!!! I HATE HIM but im like HOPELESS in LOVE

9.35am ; Its Raining.
Im going for netcity walala~
Bored staying at home because it MAY SPEED UP MY BRAINS TO THINK OF IT AGAIN!
IM GOING LET IT GO
and IM TRYING HARD ENOUGH
LOL

MAYBE SHOPPING FOR CHOCOLATES THAT WHAT SAID BY HORLIC!
MAYBE IT HELPSxD

*SIGH

2009-08-12T00:56:00.000-07:00

I couldnt actually do my paper. Rite now im having Sejarah paper 2 .
Im kinda in diemma rite now!
What i should I do now?
Can You actually tell me why?
Or besides any reasons?
I wanna know da truth .
Do you know ?
Im emotionally distrees thinking dat u left me!
I'm not asking much
Just to spend my time with you
It shounds lik im DISTRACTIONG your CONCENTRATION?
I dint know why!

First day of trials so PERFECT for me
I knew ure there to support me ~
Yeahhh! I may seem im tough but deep inside u never know

I may have many guys friends but most of them are not my choicE
I DONT KNOW THAT U'LL ever know YOU MEANT SOMETHING TO ME
IS obvious u dont know rite?
AND GUES WHAT U WILL NEVER KNOW= =
I already crying whole nite bout dis
I CAN ALSO SPENT MY WHOLE TIME CRYING
I M LIK TRAPED INTO MY OWN TRAP
*SIGH*
IM SILLY !
ALL YOU KNOW IS APPOLOGIZE BUT SERIOUSLY CANT YOU JUST THINK OF MY FEELINGS?
OR BEST? REASON!

I DO REALLY WISH DAT MALAYSIA IS UNITED STATES
SO I CAN LET GO MY TENSION DRIVING HIGH SPEED CAR
I RAN AWAY FROM HOME THAT NITE= =
IS QUITE LONELY NITE START DRIVING LIK DAMN FAST= =
BUT I STILL CANT FORGET BOUT IT

I DINT SLEEP THE WHOLE NITE= =
NOT EATING PROPER FOOD= =
I JUST STOP HALF WAY AD JURU
IS KINDA NICE PLACE I SAW SUNRISE THERE

IM HOPELESSY IN LOVE~
IM TIRED
I CANT CONCENTRATED ANYMORE
I JUST FEEL THE PAIN RITE NOW!

HIM

2009-08-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

I DIN'T WANT YOU TO MAKE THE DECISION BETWEEN PARENTS AND ME ! SO I KNOW ! WE SHOULDN'T BE AT THIS PLACE AT FIRST ; I NEVER REGRETTED ANYTHING BUT OBVIOUSLY UPSET .
I CANT DO ANYTHING BOUT IT; SO I KINDA LIKE GAVE UP. HOPES !
I REALLY HATE HOPPING! BECAUSE I WILL END UP WITH NOTHING!
I KINDA LIKE FALL FOR YOU! IT WASNT AS FAST I EXPECTED !
IS OKAY IF YOU JUST WALK OFF!
IM NOT GOING SAY ANYTHING OR CRY!
BUT U KNOW IT HURTS ?
I REALLY HATE YOU AT THE SAME TIME I FALL FOR YOU!

THE SONG THAT IM LISTENING IS BRITNEY SPEARS ; WALK ON BY
IT SUITS MY EMOTION NOW= =CURRENT ! I WONDERING MEETING THEM IS SO HARD?
LIKE THEY WILL EAT YOU?

I'm coming down with a heartache tonight
Only you can make it right
If I can't be with you holding you tight
There won't be no morning light

Everywhere I turn
I see your face
Reminding me of a higher place
Every time you smile, Angels cry
Every time you walk on by

CHORUS:
I'm not the only
Feeling' lonely
Every time you walk on by
I try to say something'
But end up with nothing'
Every time you walk on by

I keep my cool
I pretend I'm not here
Every time you come too near
I'm such a fool cause
This love is true
And if I don't tell you
Someone else surely will

Everywhere I turn
I see your face
Reminding me of a higher place
Every time you smile, Angels cry
Every time you walk on by

Repeat Chorus:

Feeling' lonely

If I ever see you again
This craziness must find an end
I look at you and I promise myself

Repeat Chorus Two Times

Every time you walk on by
Every time you walk on by

worst nitemare

2009-08-11T07:37:00.000-07:00

wendee drove mi to school and went back with him. He is someone that im thinking off now= = firstly in the morning i felt so happy . I'm not sure whether i'm looking forward to see him . But you know, I'm excited . I lost my concentration during my exam . and OF course i end the history paper fast . I'm lost . He was there early then i expected . NO! He was punctual. What do you expect for? Good guy ha? He drove me home . But i dint show him the exact location of my grandma's house . He was waiting in the car while i get ready.
We went to gurney , cool , His driving are not bad. Glad he wasn't as bad as my first driving time. We went for the basement car pack .LOL .God gracious low parking skills . I wanted to have sushi for lunch but end up in MANILA PLACE . I thought its kinda nice place to eat but I DINT THINK SO! we went arcade ' he must have let me win those races . ANYWAY I'M PROUD . and we went for a movie OVERHEARD stupid lame story . HALF WAY WALK OFF =) and there goes my day !

BAD WEEK

2009-07-23T05:16:00.001-07:00

Recently everything seems to befalls on me!
Kinda a bad thing huh?!
Everything i'm doing is counted half way HALF WAY DONE!

OMG!! I really cant belive Everything that happen this week . Its like a spell!
Gosh!!

1. ABOUT FRIENDSHIP
Its kinda unlogical to say that IT HAPPEN FOR A REASON

I had cold war with my buddy ! Munirah the gila one= =Its was a speechless and it HAPPEN FOR HOURS! but FORTUNATELY WAS OK !SO WE RETURN BACK OUT CRAZY DAYS IN SCHOOL

THEN :
THE WORST PART OF THE WEEK!
IS HAVING WARS BETWEEN ASSISTANT MONITOR= = [somebody]
'M NOT SURE WHAT I DID TO HER BUT IT CAN COUNT A MISUNDERSTANDING ~
KINDA PISS OF BY HER ACTIONS= = SO !! ENOUGH! FOR THIS WEEK ! WHEN FOR SOME COUNSELING SECTION!
COUNSELOR SAID THAT IS ACTUALLY A 50/50 THING! SHE WAS ACTUALLY AGAINST THE IDEA OF HAVING MONITOR AND ASSISTANT TO DO THE DEMERIT THING! HER STANDING STATES THAT IS A BIAS THING! *SIGH! THAT WHAT IM HAVING AT MY MIND NOW. HER FRIENDS CAN DO AND WE CAN'T. SO ?! SHE ASKED ME TO LET GO ! SO I TRY TO LET GO OF MY GRUDGE TOWARDS HER! IM ACTUALLY DOING MY PART!

BAD SUPPORTING TEACHER
I ALREADY CHANGE BUT I DONT THINK SHE GET IT! I CANT MAKE ANYTHING UP FOR HER
MY FEELING IS MY COURAGE BEEN TORN AWAY! BUT *GASP I'M TELLING MYSLEF THAT IM JOANNE! NOBODY CAN MAKE DISCOURAGE ME! I WILL WORK HARD FOR IT!

Love in The Ice

2009-07-12T06:51:00.000-07:00

its not ure fault those hands are cold
clinging onto
the wounds of past
afraid to love someone
turning ure back against
The heart that is hugged
slowly melts
in the circle of hear= =

♥ Memories♥

NEW CHAPTER

Chapter32; Memories

Chapter32; Wishes For Christmas

Chapter31; Never knew I needed you

Chapter30; Changed man

Chapter29;Papers -Usher

Chapter28; END

Chapter27; Battle

Chapter26; Battlefield

Chapter25 ; ________

Chapter24;Confessions

Chapter23; Dreams

Chapter22; him ♥ my dreams

Chapter21 ;Revelation

Chapter21;♥Breaking Dawn

Chapter20; <3 hearts him

Chapter19 ; FCUK!

Chapter18; Run

Chapter17 ;INSECURITY

Chapter 16;summer love ;]

Chapter16; ★Tiefstand meines Herzens

Chapter 15 ;★ Dreams

Chapter14 ; Falling in love

Chapter13 ; Star falls ★

Chapter13; Viva Him★

Chapter 12; Him★

Chapter 13; Independent ★

Chapter 12 ; Promises

Chapter 11; Complications★

Chapter 10; ★CLINGING ♥

♥ その過剰； 不幸

Chapter9; him ♥

Chapter 8; Warm touch♥

Chapter 7: Breakthrough Night ♥

♥ shine♥ chapter6♥

♥ UNTRAPMENT

♥capricorn; unicorn lover♥

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♥ Resonance ♥ Chapter 5

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♥pandora misery ♥ chapter 4♥

♥Je t'aime et seulement vous

♥ reminscence♥ chapter 3♥

♥twillight chapter 3

chapter2 ♥music as a cure

chapter one ♥

*SIGH

HIM

worst nitemare

BAD WEEK

Love in The Ice

♥ その過剰；不幸

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